I’m an addict.
Post-it notes are my drug of choice (this is not the first time I’ve had
to admit to a paper-based dependence).
They feather the inside covers of every notebook. But like most intoxicants I wonder if they
are finally getting the better of me. I
wonder if the thrill of usage is being undercut by the comedown. The realisation grows that while I clearly
had a great time while using I have no recollection of the high. Instead I am left with tattered squares covered
with scribbles that strive to remind me of the ride.
I make these notes to let my pen catch up with my
thoughts. But I wonder if my notation is
letting me down. I’m starting to
struggle to decode myself. I’m finding
initials and scratches of phrase that mean nothing. I knew I had a problem when the other
day I found a stern command in bold
capitals to ‘WRITE ABOUT D & G’ with no idea who or what this refers to,
but I’m fairly sure it’s not Dolce & Gabbana. Maybe this is how it looks when a writer
loses their mind.
And while they are of little use if they don’t remind me of
what I wanted to remember at least they form a strange poetry of their own. And if my jottings were intended to be a sprinkled
line of breadcrumbs to lead me home that has clearly failed - but at least I’ve
fed the birds.